The First Monday of the Rest of My Life

Yesterday (Monday, May 7, 2012) was an interesting day for me. It was the first day in years that I was not going to class, either day or night, or online for that matter. It was the first day of the first week, where I really could plan to do what I wanted. So, I am looking to set some goals now that I have some free time. Small daily goals, weekly goals, and since I still have a class for July, getting a degree in the mail by December. I am currently searching for a great career; although it will be my first one, I have no intentions on settling.

Luckily, yesterday I hit my goal of just making it to the gym. For those of you that know me, you have heard my vomit sound at the thought of running. LOATHE running. I can barely run a mile without stopping, actually I am not even at the mile mark, but I am very close. The goal was 3 miles, I set the bar high so that I would disappoint myself for quitting at the 1 mile mark that I am already so close to, quitting at something so NOT fun is very tempting you know. I managed 2.5, not steady, but managed and was not completely worn out, but starving at that point. You know I am a fatty when I let the thought of food stop me with half a mile to go. Hunger wasn't the only reason though, I'd really had enough. I probably could have hit some weights and been fine, but the burn in my chest I had been trying to ignore, finally took my breath and I decided I was finished with the running portion of my workout. My motivation is not where it should be so, I called it a night two planks later. The plans tonight are to try a new gym with a friend and do a spin class. The likelihood of making it an entire hour is more than slim to none. I have already asked my friend to get bikes at the back of the room so that I don't have to give out in front of everyone. There are currently chills all over my spine at the thought of my legs burning 3 minutes in and me wanting to quit. I can do a steady push, for a short period, but that sprinting, super-pedaling stuff is sooo not for me. My thighs get so tight and burn in a way that they feel too heavy to even move. I know this because it is the feeling I get when Matt tries to push me to get up a hill on our mountain bikes. Unfortunately, I will not be able to shout obscenities in this class, as I do at him, bless his heart. I think from now on I will include little goals and updates in the blog just for motivation and as a way for me to be held accountable for the things I said I would do. I hear it works, so why not. I have three weeks to get bikini ready, so this is going to be necessary. Mission Impossible: Fitness Challenge.

Another goal I have currently in mind is to take horseback riding lessons. I really have always wanted to and now I have time...the thought and value of time has suddenly clicked with me. Having time to do what interests me really seems unreal, and like a huge privilege, and it is a privilege, I can't kid myself on that one. Now if it would stop long enough to take a vacation, that I don't have to skip getting paid for, I would be in much better shape. That is something I am also super thankful for and cannot wait to experience. A full week vacation. Have not had one in like two years and I am soo excited to unwind...or that is what I hope to do anyway.

What this all boils down to is that, I am actually going to have time for me, and I am excited. This is my first week, and while I have not gotten out of the bed any earlier (shame, shame I know), I have managed to hit the gym, write a new post, grocery shop with my Love, finish a book and cook a healthy meal. ( I LOVE grocery shopping with Matt, kinda silly, but true) Now the goal is to figure out how to post pictures to this blog of mine and write about more interesting stuff. Cheers!